priorities....

I came across a article in Masters and slaves group from a woman who is serving a Dominant couple and has grown adult children and is questioning priorities and hierarchy of the family unit.

Now this made me think...hmmm...what is first in my life?

Bear is first because I have to make sure that he's tended to so he can provide financially for our family and our needs. He has to work to make sure that our family is financially solvent and for now, He is the money maker of the house.

Secondly, it's me because I still have to survive school and start working to make the type of combined money to provide for our child who is already facing a tough road ahead with severe autism.

Third is Butch. He is still very important in our lives and we have to look towards what his life may be like as he matures and grows older. His autism isn't going to improve and we have to make sure that he gets the quality of life that he can reasonably attain. However, if Bear and i don't take care of ourselves, he won't have the type of life that he so rightfully deserves. Butch has already gone through enough horseshit in his nine short years that he deserves so much better.

I know most on there would say that i suck because I worry about Butch more than Bear at times but I know that Butch can't tend to himself and in the end, it's well worth the struggle and sacrifice.